The Weighting Room Podcast
The Weighting Room Podcast
FGT 55: A Quick Chat
We explore the unexpected mental and physical adjustments that come with significant weight loss, from discovering new bones to navigating changing social dynamics.
• Recovering from a painful workplace injury that makes sitting uncomfortable
• Personal training experiences and the excitement of starting a new fitness routine
• Changing workout approaches to ensure full-body training
• The strange experience of discovering bones and muscles you've never felt before
• Body dysmorphia and the challenge of seeing your own weight loss progress
• The disconnect between how others see you versus how you see yourself
• Feeling lost between weight loss communities as your body changes
• What thin people don't understand about living in a larger body
• The judgment that comes with eating in public as a larger person
• Challenges with clothing that isn't properly designed for plus-size bodies
• Setting goals for the week including tracking food and consistent gym sessions
Do you have a story you would like to share? Send it to us at theweightingroompc@gmail.com
Disclaimer: We are not Medical professionals and all views and opinions are our own.
Hello, hello.
Speaker 2:We're back so soon I know who would have thought, compared to last time, where it was like a what three month hiatus.
Speaker 1:Yeah, probably more.
Speaker 2:Who's keeping track? Not us.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I already told you from a voice note, but I'll tell everyone my ass hurts today.
Speaker 2:Oh, I didn't listen to your voice note, so that's okay.
Speaker 1:My ass hurts today, and I mean the butt cheek Yesterday at work, without saying exactly what it was, is that I do? I landed on a pole, like right on my cheek, like with full force, so bad that I threw the thing I was holding and just screamed in pain. It felt like stubbing my toe times a hundred and I even got like nauseous.
Speaker 1:I got dizzy afterwards, like I felt like I messed myself up, like okay two inches, like you did two inches the right, I'd be in the ER and it's just, it's killing me to like sit down today. It's radiating down my thigh and I still have to go into work later. I'm not very excited about that, yeah, just because like, if I call in about this I'd have to go through the whole WCB thing and all that, and like I'm not interested in that because it's not a full blown injury. It just really hurts to operate today.
Speaker 1:It's just a bruise, but my first aid attendant was like I'm worried that like you could have like messed up a nerve or something with just how it's hurting my leg, but I don't know, it's like it is subsiding. So I think it's just nothing too serious.
Speaker 2:Oh man, seeing me sit down, though, it's quite the show you have to get one of those hemorrhoid pillows, just to put it on where the oh my god, I actually thought about that.
Speaker 1:But then I'm like I don't think I have hemorrhoids. Hey, there's nothing wrong with having hemorrhoids, but I just don't want everyone at work to be gossiping about it. I work with a bunch of men. They'll take any opportunity they can to gossip, which is so funny, so funny to have that experience. They're always like women gossip so much. I'm like have you worked with only men?
Speaker 2:before. So every time, like so me and one of my friends, emma Hi, emma, I don't know if she listens or not, but she, her and I will be hanging out and we'll be watching a movie or whatnot. And we hang out most Fridays and we will start gossiping about stuff. And I just see Brandon slowly start moving his headpiece back while he's gaming beside us, and then he's just like some we'll say something and he'll be like beside us and then he's just like some we'll say something and he'll be like, hey, like guys are all about the drama. They say that it's us, but it's like they thrive for it.
Speaker 1:Yeah, rams is like hit and miss, like. Sometimes I can see him paying attention, but a lot of times he doesn't give a crap about anything. He's like, whatever, whatever, it's not my problem.
Speaker 2:If it's like big like, if it's major tea, like if we are like no like you know what I mean, Like Brandon's in on it. But if it's just like some BS that happened that day. He's just like whatever, but he's so totally there for the drama.
Speaker 1:Rams and I have our first personal training session tomorrow. I'm so excited for you, I know I'm so excited Like well, technically I guess it's the second, because we already did have a first, like the first free one. But now I feel like it'll be a bit different, maybe because we paid for it, even though I found it really great and Rams, he went down to go see the fireworks. Have you ever heard about the Celebration of Light in Vancouver? So I still call it Benson and Hedges, because it used to be sponsored by the cigarette company. But then all of a sudden it was like, hey, maybe we shouldn't, and this actually might be the last year, just due to lack of funding year, just due to lack of funding, and I haven't actually tried to look up any articles about it, but this year it was only Canadian cities that were performing. It's three dates and each day is a different city and normally it's different cities around the world or like different countries, and yeah, this year is only Canadian, maybe with the tariffs, I don't know.
Speaker 1:Uh, and I told Rams on Wednesday it was my night off. I'm like we can go. I don't want to go like I'm telling you I'll go for you because you've never seen it. But I would never go down there like ever again, especially sober. It's just, it's not a good time. It's anywhere between you know what and I could be over-exaggerating like I'm going to say 200,000 people to 400,000 people all congregated down at the beach just to watch fireworks, and then, like there's a lot of stuff that goes on before and then it's a zombie walk back to the Sky Trains or like trying to get home. So he was like you was like you know what, like no, it's no big deal, like whatever.
Speaker 1:And then on Saturday, when I had to go to work, he was like oh, our buddy said let's go, but there's like these hills and stuff and it involves a lot of walking. And our friend is one of those people that are like it's not too far of a walk, not too far to me as a block or two. He's like not too far as five kilometers. Yeah, yeah, the round is like my legs hurt so much. So I'm messaging him, being like do you think we're good for the gym? Uh, but yeah, so, um, I think we're both gonna be okay, but we're I'm gonna be like no floor exercises please. And he'll probably be like no squats please love it.
Speaker 1:It looked like you were doing something important, no, I'm still like here, it's just because of my injury. My co-workers like how are you feeling today? Um, because I there's this whole thing like with shift swaps and then if I called in sick then he wouldn't be able to take my shift anymore. It's just blah blah, it's a thing. Yeah, he's just blah, blah, blah, it's a thing. Yeah, he's just like are you calling in sick? Let me get this guy out. Okay, how are things with you?
Speaker 2:I feel like last episode was a lot about me, see, you say that, but I listened to the episode today and I think it was pretty 50-50. I think we both talked.
Speaker 2:I think I just have this fear of taking over conversations completely, because I used to always do Me, me, me, me, me. Well, the good news is I like to listen to people and obviously everybody else here likes to listen to people. Otherwise it's like why are you here? That's what a podcast is. I'm good to answer your question. I went to the gym this morning, so I've been up since 3 am. Hold on, I'm y to answer your question.
Speaker 2:I went to the gym this morning, so I've been up since 3am. Hold on, I'm yawning again for those keeping track, that's three. Um, I have been up since three. Uh, and it's currently almost 8 30, so, um, it's been a long day and my work day just felt like a really long day. But, honestly, the gym this morning was so good, like this was the best gym session I have had in such a long time, because I actually sat down yesterday, yesterday or the day before, I can't remember and I actually wrote out, um, my whole workout before going to the gym, because the last few times I can't remember if I was talking about this before. But, uh, the I I like to do push and pull workouts like push, push, pull, full body workouts.
Speaker 2:So like, on one day I'll do push workouts with focusing on quads for legs, and then another day I would do pull workouts and focused on hamstrings and glutes. Um, and I just do it that way so that I'm doing like a full body workout, because I was noticing, like last year when I was going to the gym I would do a leg workout and then I wouldn't like, on Monday I would do legs and then on Tuesday I wouldn't go to the gym and then on Wednesday I would be like oh, I haven't been to the gym since Monday, I've rested. On Tuesday I could just do legs again, because who wants to do upper body? So I was just doing legs all the time and all the time and all the time. So I switched to some arm muscles and some leg muscles and then the next day slash whenever I come in. Next, I would swap and do the other sets of legs and the other sets of arms, so that I was getting full body, working full body all the time, as well as still working out my arms, which I'm so glad I did, because I keep thinking this is going to sound so stupid.
Speaker 2:This is my first time saying it out loud and this is the stupidest thing that I've ever said. I keep thinking I have cancer. Oh yeah, because I feel new bumps on my body. They're bones. They are bones and muscle. But I'm like, oh my God, what is that? And then I panic for like 10 minutes and I'm like is this a muscle? Is this a bone that I haven't felt before? And then I just panic for a little while and then I actually had my friend on Friday, emma. Again, I was like can you feel my knees? Because I need to know if I should be concerned about this. And she's like I'm pretty sure this is just like a bone and I'm like I don't know. I like I'm really worried about this.
Speaker 1:I'm laughing because you're actually not the first person I've heard that from. It's like what is this? Oh, I've never felt this before.
Speaker 2:I can feel my hip bones now and I'm like should I get this check?
Speaker 1:that was something I noticed, too, like when I had got down to 283. I would like it was when I was lying down, though, and I would feel my side, and I was like I actually couldn't stop touching it, because I was like is this what people with no fat feel on a daily basis? Like it just freaked me out, like wow.
Speaker 2:I this is TMI Dad, if you're listening, don't listen. I put on lingerie for the first time the other day Not the first time ever, but like the first time since losing this amount of weight and I have, like, my full length mirror and I was standing in front of it and I was like, oh, length mirror. And I was standing in front of it and I was like, oh, my god, I look amazing. And like Brandon comes in, he's like whoa and I'm like not now, this is me time. And then at one point, like when he was holding me, I'm like where did I go? Like I feel like you're not. It feels like a phantom, like it feels like spots that he used to touch me just doesn't exist anymore and it's such a weird feeling.
Speaker 2:Like it's so it's so weird. I also feel this was one thing that I was going to talk about. Today, too is like I almost feel lost because, like for the longest time, it was like um, the community that I was building was like people who were also trying to lose a large amount of weight with me, and now it's like, when I find people who have lost a large amount of weight, like I have, it's already people who are like have like millions of followers and they're just big creators, and it's just like I can't really relate to you because you're a big creator, or like now you're going on these recruits or whatever, like these cruises and all this stuff, and it's like I mean, it's a little lonely in this phase, I guess, I would say, but everything that's happening, though, is really exciting. It's just like who else feels that? You know what I mean.
Speaker 1:Yeah.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I also think that, like you know, with those moments where these are such important moments, when you're like looking in the mirror and you're noticing these things, you're trying things on and you're taking the time to just like be with yourself, you know, and then like taking those photos, like the progress photos, because I feel like you would probably still be in the I haven't lost enough weight if you hadn't been taking so many photos. Oh for sure time, because it's like you weren't noticing it, like a lot of our podcast episodes and you would say things like that and I'm just looking at you like, are you mental? You lost so much weight, and then you were posting the photos. I'm like, yes, she sees it, that's good.
Speaker 2:Yeah, the reason. Honestly, I had to post them because I couldn't see it and it just sounds so. It sounds so stupid because, like I see other people who have lost a lot of weight and it's like Jess Subject, for example. Like her and I started at very similar bodies and in very similar spots, Like right now she's between 270, 260. And then I look at her and she's between 270 and 260 and she's a size 18, but also 2X, and it's like I'm an XL top and 2X bottom, but I can't wear 2X or I can't wear 18s.
Speaker 2:You know what I mean Like so it's just it's.
Speaker 2:It always depends on the fabric, it depends on everything Like it's yeah, yeah and I see, I see her weight loss and I see how she is and I'm like, oh, that's, I want to look like that. But then I think about it and I'm like you're like 30 pounds off of that, like you think that you're not there. But you are there, because body dysmorphia is like it's just, I'm aware of it, but my body or my brain still doesn't care yeah, and everyone's gonna lose weight in like different ways and it like will make them look totally different.
Speaker 1:Like in my family, a lot of us, when we lose weight, we'll lose it in our face and chest, shoulders area first, um, I always wanted it. I'm like, just get that stomach. But you know right, um, and like I really was noticing it in your face, a lot like, and. But when you put book, well, also because we're looking like this. And then when you, when you post photos, I'm like, oh my gosh, like it's just, it's different because you know like, for example, let's say, me and you are losing the same weight at the same time, like I have no ass, like it has been a flat pancake since I was born, and like you have a butt, so it's like you know our weight loss would look like totally different because, especially with the way that we put the weight on sorry, hey, rams, just got home from work. Oh, hi, rams, I do just have to take a time out for a second because I just want to call my work. Sure, okay, my work's going to be calling me back, so I might.
Speaker 1:So, on the topic of body image and everything, I came across this Reddit post that was titled obese people have read it. What is something non obese people don't understand or can't understand? And there are so many different responses underneath it, and the top one was this person that wrote the guilt that comes when you're seen eating anything at all. The oh good for you If you're seen eating a salad, because the only possible reason a fat dude would eat a salad is to lose weight. The existential dread every time you get a random pain in your chest or stitch in your side and think this could finally be the heart attack, but then like it reminded me of when you were like this bone cancer.
Speaker 2:The amount of times when I get like a stitch in my side and I'm just like this is it, this is the end.
Speaker 1:The fact that you can go days or weeks at a time without really feeling bad about being fat, but then, all of a sudden, one day, it's all that you can notice about yourself. So, true Fact Summer fucking sucks. It's too hot anyway, but being fat makes it hotter. And then you get worried that, despite having perfectly good, if not over the top, hygiene, maybe you're starting to have the fact. I smell, edit, also the unsolicited advice from incredibly well-intentioned people that don't think we haven't heard it all already or don't know it already.
Speaker 1:Logic brain versus emotional brain is so misunderstood. Uh, yeah, feeling judged no matter. This is a different person. Feeling judged no matter what food. I'm seen with vegetables, fruit, hummus. No amount of healthy eating will help her. Chips and frozen pizza, no wonder she's fat. A mix of healthy and non more of the same blah, blah, oh, chafing. Uh, it's particularly cruel. Uh, because it makes you even more likely to avoid walking or exercise, thus ensuring you put on more weight. And then someone had responded to that oh, and like pants, then wearing out because they're rubbing together With the note of chafing.
Speaker 2:They now have like the full, the total body deodorants, the total body deodorants, and I decided not to get one Because I'm looking at it it says total body and it's like you can put it anywhere on your body pretty much and I'm like I already put normal deodorant pretty much everywhere on my body as it is, and this one's $14. And regular deodorant is $7. So I really don't know the difference between the two, but I use regular deodorant is $7. So I really don't know the difference between the two, but I use regular deodorant.
Speaker 1:Oh, shopping for clothes has definitely different criteria than skinny people. It's not? Ooh, that looks pretty, but oh, they actually sell this in a five XL.
Speaker 2:Yes, that hit me that and like it could be plus size, but it's not made for plus size people, so it doesn't look right. Like Old Navy was so, like their crop tops that were like, hey, these are shirts, but they ended up being like crop tops for plus size because they didn't add length, they only went wider for a lot of their shirts, so I hated that. That drove me insane. Stores try to be inclusive with all sizes but then don't actually take the time to figure out how those bodies actually have to fit in the clothes. They just think they can just make them bigger, not realizing it's there's other, there's other styles that have to be done and even sometimes like plus size clothes don't even look right. Like from torrid. I find they want to bring it in, but for me it's being cut up off up here but it needs to be more down here, so it's like it's only this.
Speaker 1:it's never this, yeah as well yeah it's only it's not up and down, for those didn't see my arms flailing um, and there's this other one which you might know because I think you used to use this uh, how it feels when the we fit lady says that's obese in her cheery ass voice. So people underneath it. When back in college we had a Wii in our dorm and it was quite popular. I remember I got the Wii Fit for Christmas and brought it with me after break. Everyone got excited to set up their profiles. My friend stood up to get her profile set up with all of us there.
Speaker 1:The BMI calculator does this animation. That's obese. Talk about a watch people die inside kind of moment. Nobody knew what to say. I felt so bad for her. God damn it. Japan, you're harsh. Um, someone else said someone I know actually did this and it told him one person at a time. Please, oh, I just I can't even. And like I once logged in after years and had gained some weight and not only did it call me fat, it also immediately changed my me to be fat. We fit does not pull punches.
Speaker 2:Yes, I do remember that, when we would step on it and it would just go obese. And I would just be like oh well, that's fine.
Speaker 1:And then I honestly I thought it was broken. And then my friend who was like super small, she stepped on it and it was like underweight and I'm like, well, no, it's me, it's not, and I don't know if this is true, but someone said dude, japan gives absolutely no fucks about fat people. They have clothing stores specifically for fat people and the names of these stores do not hold back at all. Oh, but that just keeps going on and on and there's so many like really funny ones. If you like, look up obese people of reddit, like what something like it's. It's so true, because like a lot of these things, like like people that are thinner, um, just don't even realize.
Speaker 2:But I'm sure there's things on the other side that you know we don't get the thing I would add would be the thing that I posted this week where hollister just came out with their early 2000s line and I'm like I can't relate to that, because I dressed like a 50 year old woman when I was in the early 2000s and some people like in the comments were like finally I found my people. And then other people were like I did get confused. People thought I was a teacher or like an adult on the playground and I'm like, yes, that did happen to me and I was in grade four or five and I remember a younger kid come up to me and they were like ma'am or teacher or whatever. This student just pushed me off the hill and I was like, okay, that sucks, I can't do anything about it well, like if anyone has heard some cuts in this.
Speaker 1:Honestly, I just had a problem with like work and stuff and unfortunately I really have to go deal with that right now. So I think that we're going to be cutting this episode a little bit short because I am frazzled right now. I'm so think that we're going to be cutting this episode a little bit short because I am I'm frazzled right now. I'm so disappointed in something. So, yeah, this episode is kind of weird to me, but it might sound different once I edit it.
Speaker 2:I was just gonna say I think you're, I think you're overthinking it, I don't think it sounds. I think, with my cuts in your reading, it's all good If you want to. If you just want to close it and leave that, we can do that.
Speaker 1:Yeah, do you have any goals this week? I think, like I would like to just say that, any goals.
Speaker 2:Not really. Yes, really I do need to get on track, with some like I got to track my food, because I feel like I'm really just snacking. I'm not really focusing on food, so I'm not really sure what I'm eating at the moment. I'm thinking back on today and it's just like it was so much snack stuff that I honestly don't know what I ate today. So I would like to get on track for tracking my calories this week. Nice, that's my goal.
Speaker 1:I plan on going to the gym Tuesday and Thursday at least.
Speaker 2:I'm so excited for you. You'll have to let me know how it goes. Yeah, for sure. I was going to ask you about your first session because we were talking about the kettlebell thing, but I know we got to wrap up. I know we got to wrap up tonight, so we will talk about both gym sessions.
Speaker 1:Yeah, for sure, for sure, I'm gonna ask you if you're still gonna make me do it that way because, yeah, slow and controlled kettlebell doesn't really work for me just throw it across, yeah exactly and throw it through the window. I swear I'm ready to throw something through a window right now.
Speaker 2:Okay, uh, yeah, thanks for listening, yay, bye.